A Monday's Thoughts

I had a rather interesting weekend. I got to spend two evenings hanging out with my guy, and some of his friends. While I enjoy the time I get to spend with him, however separated from him I am, is good. And sometimes it is awkward, like on Friday we all went to a science museum adult night, and he was way hyped up on caffeine and wasn't interacting very much with me. Not that I was trying very hard. Cramped spaces made for kids is not fun when you have a bunch of guys. Not sure what was going on then. After that we all played video games for a while. A little more fun, I admit.

The next day was a bit less awkward. This time it was video games first, and then food. The table conversation was definitely not my strong suit, but I think I got a good look at some of his personality. And I could almost swear on getting a lusty look. For whatever that is worth. Whew.

So what does this all mean? I have no idea, but I'm getting the idea that he's a bit reticent towards me, and perhaps that's because I am reticent towards him. I am shy, and even more so when I'm with someone I'm attracted to, which is both a grace and a curse. But I am going to try to be a bit more talkative around him. We'll see how this goes.

Expecting Too Much

I want a man.

I want a man that can lift me off my feet.

I want a man that can lift my spirits.

I want a man that can hold me.

I want a man that I can hold.

I want a man that smiles when he sees me.

I want a man that makes me smile.

I want a man that can tell me to shut up.

I want a man that knows when to shut up.

I want a man that wants me as I was.

I want a man that wants me as I am.

I want a man that wants me as I will be.

I want a man that can talk to me about anything.

I want a man that can talk to me about nothing.

I want a man that wants to be with me every moment.

I want a man that knows when to leave me alone.

I want a man that is gracious.

I want a man that isn't afraid to be rude.

I want a man that will spend money on me.

I want a man that will understand when I say it isn't necessary.

I want a man that can give.

I want a man that can take.

I want a man that knows my limits.

I want a man that can break them.

I want a man that loves everything.

I want a man that loves one thing.

I want a man that makes mistakes.

I want a man that knows he does so.

I want a man that embraces change.

I want a man that is consistent.

I want a man that has a heart.

I want a man that can give it away.

I want a man that is a rock.

I want a man that needs to lean.

I want a man that is everything.

I want a man that is nothing.

I want a man.