Think Less, Imagine More

After writing some poetry/lyrics today, I had a thought. Think less, imagine more.

As a writer, it is very easy to get stuck in one's own head. Everything written becomes flat and rather lifeless. It can be very intellectual, but not real or personable. I've had issues making my writing real and vivid, as I tend to focus on plot and ideas. In poetry, I'm even worse at that. Images are your friends as a writer.

So I've decided to adopt this slogan, and post it on my three ring-binder. Think less, imagine more.

Tell me what you think about this.

Bachelor's Graduation

Well, it's official! Or as close as it's going to get (still waiting for one more grade to be posted).

I've graduated with a Bachelor's Degree in English.

My graduate and ceremony were last Saturday, but I've had family in town, and I've been busy trying to order my life together. I realize I have posted a lot in the last year or so, and I can't say for certain why that is. I recently looked back through a few of my early diary entries (personal ones) and that got me thinking about blogging. I really miss all of you guys, and the great discussions we've had. I apologize for disappearing as it were. If you're interested you can follow me on twitter: http://twitter.com/snowppl

I took a look today through my blogs, and I've noticed a change in my writing. If you've been a blog reader of mine since the beginning, you'll notice that at first they were journal entries, private moments spelt out on the 'interwebz.' Then I changed my style to tell a story (with as many typos as possible!), and a few other interactive blogs. I then switched back to a more journal-type blog experience. I hope to use both in the future. Today's blog features a personal diary feel.

In reading my past diary entries, I regret not writing down more, even if it was just boring everyday activities. They really tell of how life was (even if they aren't interesting). There is going to be a huge chuck of life missing from printed material, but hopefully, in my mind, I will still have these memories (or maybe I should give in to my writer's soul and write as much as I can down!). Life is sometimes best lived, and then reflected upon. I hope I never forget the people and the memories of my time at the University of New Mexico.

I felt that now is the time to reflect on where I have been, to better judge where I wish to go. I have grown tremendously over the last 2 years that I've been here in New Mexico. I've changed for the better, and I've changed for the worse. I feel like I've lost a part of me, my youth and exuberance, but I've gained knowledge and insight (I know I'm still young, but a lot can change in a short amount of time). I think I've become a much more stable person, more in tune with what is going on around. I've had good times, and I've had bad times.

There is one person I'd really like to thank, that I know will never hear the words pass from my lips. I'll never forget what you'd said to me when I told you I had no idea what to do with my life; you gave me courage, vision, and a gentle shove in the right direction. Thanks, Sean.

Other special MySpace thanks: Lael- rough, but you tell me what I need to hear; Marge- always there for a smile and I know I can count on you, even if we don't talk much; Becca- you are always a beacon of light and truth, and you make me feel beautiful and special; Michael- you've been ever encouraging; and a heartfelt thanks to everyone in my life, I couldn't have done it without you.

Year in Partial Review

I hope you all had a good year! I for one am glad that it is over! I took 13 classes this year alone and managed to pull through. This last semester I received a GPA of 3.901 so I'm very happy to have that, not to mention this whole year behind me. :)

It was a very busy year, and productive. I moved off of campus, a wonderful experience, but I needed my own place. I meet a great group of friends and I'm glad that I got to meet them. Miss all my housing friends though!

I've been so busy with school that I neglected to do much writing outside of class, but over this break I hope to get started with my second book in my trilogy. It didn't work out that I could write the whole trilogy this year. But I hope to have most of it done by the end of next year. We'll see if I can do it!

I also totally failed my objective of blogging every week, but I had spurts of no internet and this entire Fall semester had no internet at home, so I rarely went online. I feel bad, because I haven't read anyone's blog for such a long time! Forgive me! :) But I think I might have internet this next semester so that's good news.

Well, take care everyone! I hope to blog more than I have!

September

It has been a while since I posted, I realize. The last bit of summer school was busy, both with work, papers, and moving. I also moved twice in three weeks, and I love my new place! The fall semester has started, and it looks like it will be a good, but tough semester.

A Monday's Thoughts

I had a rather interesting weekend. I got to spend two evenings hanging out with my guy, and some of his friends. While I enjoy the time I get to spend with him, however separated from him I am, is good. And sometimes it is awkward, like on Friday we all went to a science museum adult night, and he was way hyped up on caffeine and wasn't interacting very much with me. Not that I was trying very hard. Cramped spaces made for kids is not fun when you have a bunch of guys. Not sure what was going on then. After that we all played video games for a while. A little more fun, I admit.

The next day was a bit less awkward. This time it was video games first, and then food. The table conversation was definitely not my strong suit, but I think I got a good look at some of his personality. And I could almost swear on getting a lusty look. For whatever that is worth. Whew.

So what does this all mean? I have no idea, but I'm getting the idea that he's a bit reticent towards me, and perhaps that's because I am reticent towards him. I am shy, and even more so when I'm with someone I'm attracted to, which is both a grace and a curse. But I am going to try to be a bit more talkative around him. We'll see how this goes.

Expecting Too Much

I want a man.

I want a man that can lift me off my feet.

I want a man that can lift my spirits.

I want a man that can hold me.

I want a man that I can hold.

I want a man that smiles when he sees me.

I want a man that makes me smile.

I want a man that can tell me to shut up.

I want a man that knows when to shut up.

I want a man that wants me as I was.

I want a man that wants me as I am.

I want a man that wants me as I will be.

I want a man that can talk to me about anything.

I want a man that can talk to me about nothing.

I want a man that wants to be with me every moment.

I want a man that knows when to leave me alone.

I want a man that is gracious.

I want a man that isn't afraid to be rude.

I want a man that will spend money on me.

I want a man that will understand when I say it isn't necessary.

I want a man that can give.

I want a man that can take.

I want a man that knows my limits.

I want a man that can break them.

I want a man that loves everything.

I want a man that loves one thing.

I want a man that makes mistakes.

I want a man that knows he does so.

I want a man that embraces change.

I want a man that is consistent.

I want a man that has a heart.

I want a man that can give it away.

I want a man that is a rock.

I want a man that needs to lean.

I want a man that is everything.

I want a man that is nothing.

I want a man.

ABQ Pride

Ah, Pride season. Such a good time of year right? Well, it sure is fun seeing everyone out en masse! I got a lil bit sunburned on my arms, but all in the name of Pride. The parade was the best part, especially the Grannies. Gay old woman. So amazing!!

The festival itself was so-so. It could have been better, it was an awkward layout, and there wasn't enough events. Plenty of alcohol and dancing though! Next year, I hope is a little better, then I have no idea where I'll be for Pride 2010.

Happy Pride Season Everyone!